Sunday, March 29, 2009

5 weeks

It finally hit...
the sudden feeling of leaving and the gut wrenching tears.
It happened in my place, the back right corner of the chapel.
A place that has become precious.
A place where I feel free to express who I am through dance in worship.
A place where I've met with God in an intimate, tangible way.

It finally hit...
the gift that dance is.
I sat in my corner and watched as a couple Sacred dancers moved to the rhythm of His Spirit.
What a beautiful image of giving your whole self in worship.
What intimacy is created by letting God move through your body.
What raw, authentic worship is depicted through the movement.

It finally hit...
graduation and leaving a place I have called home for four years.
Knowing that Hope College will continue on as it did before I ever came.
Interceding for God to keep awakening this place with new revelations of who He is.
Praying that I was able to be an encouragement to others.
Realizing that I was exactly who God wanted me to be during these years.

I have no regrets. Thank you, Father.


My corner...a picture taken from the balcony last year.

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Thankful thoughts and spring break

Time is flying. The first day of spring break has arrived, causing me to realize that there are 5 weeks of classes left, 1 week of finals, then graduation. It will be amazing to have my family, grandparents, uncle and aunt here to see where I have been living for the past four years. This has been a place of growth and maturity for me as well as a stepping block for the things ahead. But before I start concentrating on the future, I want to be thankful about a few things in the present.

-I finally went to the mail room to get my mail after being prompted by my future sister-in-law. My brother and his fiancee sent me their "save the date" card. I don't think I've ever been so excited for a wedding! It will be an honor to stand in the wedding and witness the work of God that has brought these two amazing people together.

-God has been drawing me into having a stronger and deeper devotional life. The mornings have been marked with intimacy with Him. I am currently facing a situation that requires more faith than I think have, but he has given me peace. He is our provider and Father.

-My roommate surprised me at work today to bring me candy and hair moose (that I had forgotten to get the night before). She is such an amazing friend. We went shopping last night for things that I would need for my spring break trip. I appreciate the quality time we spend together. The hardest thing about graduation will be saying "goodbye" to her...even though I think we'll be lifelong friends. It will be different not living with her.

-Spring break! I am going on a Hope missions trip to Stinking Creek, KY. We are going to be working with two older ladies who run a farm and help the community that surrounds them, in the deep of the mountains. I have no idea what this week will bring, but I'm anticipating God working in my heart and allowing me to be an encouragement to others.

I will let you know how the trip goes! Good bye!

Friday, March 13, 2009

Free To Be Me

I have a confession...like many people do, I stalk different blogs. There is one that I've been going to so that I can listen to her play list of music. This Girl's Pilgrimage has great taste in music. There is one song that she has that has been sticking out to me for the past couple weeks. The song is Free To Be Me, by Francesca Battistelli.
Here is a link to the music video and the words are below:

http://video.aol.com/video-detail/my-paper-heart-francesca-battistelli-free-to-be-me/818062608

At twenty years of age
I'm still looking for a dream
A war's already waged for my destiny
But You've already won the battle
And You've got great plans for me
Though I can’t always see

‘Cause I got a couple dents in my fender
Got a couple rips in my jeans
Try to fit the pieces together
But perfection is my enemy
On my own I'm so clumsy
But on Your shoulders
I can seeI'm free to be me

When I was just a girl
I thought I had it figured out
My life would turn out right,
and I'd make it here somehow
But things don't always come that easy
And sometimes I would doubt

And you’re free to be you

Sometimes I believe that I can do anything
Yet other times I think I've got nothing good to bring
But You look at my heart and You tell me
That I've got all You seek
And it’s easy to believe
Even though

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Central Wesleyn

There are times when I underestimate the power of dance, primarily dance as worship. I got the opportunity to dance with a couple friends at Central Wesleyan Church last Sunday. It was a freeing experience to enter into worship with the congregation because they were so welcoming. Dance in the church is quite controversial at times. Anyway, one of the worship leaders had written a song about freedom and was performing it as a special for the service. He asked me to improv to it. It was the first time in a couple of years that I was able to improv by myself in front of a church. When I danced that morning, it felt as though I was dancing in a giant living room. It was just me in my element of worship, blessing the heart of God and entering into perichoresis--the dance of the Trinity. There just happened to be hundreds of people in the room with me. We all were able to experience a different aspect of God through movement.

After both services, people told me that the movement was powerful and helped them connect with the message of the song more. Even though I thanked them, I still doubted the power that can be released through dance. I went back to that church this morning and met a woman who challenged my doubt. She said that watching dance created a bridge between her and God that enabled her to enter into a deeper level of worship. There is power released from the Holy Spirit when we dance for an audience of one. It is reassuring that God uses what we do inspite of our doubts, fears, and insecurities. We are to be willing vessels for His use, and He will do the rest.

We should never underestimate the life our gifts can bring to other people, whether we feel that they are a blessing or not. Each of us has something to give. Each of us are impacted by the gifts and talents of other people. So let the doubting cease and let us set our minds on the capabilities He has placed in us to bless the family of Chirst.