Sunday, February 24, 2008


I looked up into the vast dark sky tonight and was able to see my three favorite stars, or as Scientists call them, the belt of Orion. As my roommate and I walked to the Gathering, I couldn't help but be filled with the awe of God as I saw those stars. Different memories some to mind of watching the stars: laying in the road, only to look up a little bit later and looking at headlight coming steadily nearer... or in my driveway, with my roommate from Chicago holding my hand so tight in anticipation for a car to come down my country road and into my driveway...or laying in the soccer field at camp or just looking up any night and be amazed all over again. Looking up at the stars has a way of encapsulating me with wonder and a peace that surpasses all understanding. The stars speak of His promise...He has everything under control.

This really struck me tonight, maybe due to the fact that this has been the most difficult semester of college for me. Homesickness has been continually knocking at my door, headaches have left me wanting to curl in a ball in the darkness and sleep, friends have been going through hardships, classes are stretching me and pushing me out into the realm of the unfamiliar...but in the midst of the whirling of life, there is a stillness...a place where I am met by the One who completes my heart. There in the quiet is a constant, faithful Father and friend who love me to no end. There in the silence, I am reminded of his promises to me, ones that I have hidden in the depths of my heart. There in the refuge, I am refreshed and redeemed. There in the grace, I am purified in the glory of the King of Kings.

If your soul is aching and your life seems to out of your control, get into your tent of meeting and seek Him. Let Him remind you of His promises like He reminded me tonight as I looked into the sky...for His presence is like no other.

Monday, February 11, 2008

all I want to do is grow old with you

It's funny how the most random things can make you really think. I just watched the Wedding Singer and I had to wonder how many marriages are confirmed on the foundation of security. The woman, in this case Drew Barrymore, thought that no one would ever love her for who she was, so she devoted herself to a guy who could give her security but not a faithful relationship. This guy would just tell her that he worked long hours in the city and use that excuse to get laid by some chick who would feed his lust.

In addition, I wonder how many times we assume something about a situation, make a rash decision, and never truly hear the other side of the story or how the other person feels. It all leads to a pile of misunderstandings. The man ends up with the wrong girl and they are miserable.

It's a common belief that we will all be complete when we find love. If you're not that fortunate, then there must be something wrong with you. Man, what a hopeless way to live.
We all have the desire to be loved...we were wired that way but that is not what can complete us. Les and Leslie Parrott wrote it like this: “If you try to find intimacy with another person before achieving a sense of identity on your own, all your relationships become an attempt to complete yourself.” We need to find true contentment in ourselves and be established in God's grace and love so that we can then love others. Our lives can be an outpouring of what God is doing in our lives in the secret place. Then we can learn what it means to sacrificially love someone. And, when it comes your turn to get married, you won't get cold feet because you will know that that is exactly what God has for you.

So if you're single...know that there is nothing wrong with you or the way you look or act. God will reveal his plans for you in due time. In the meantime, see this time as a gift to invest time in your relationship with God. You'd be surprised at how much he has to reveal to you. Make yourself moldable and experience a journey that you will never regret.
For He is the only one in whom you will ever find true contentment.

Saturday, February 2, 2008

Blessings from Groundhog's Day

We never know what can come from a holiday. In Punxsutawney, PA, Phil said that there would be six more weeks of winter. Well, thank you, Mr. Groundhog. I can't say that I'm particularly thrilled at the prospect of walking to my classes in knee deep snow (it seems that Michigan snow plowers are in denial that they need to plow)...yet I have to stop in amazement at God as I trudge to the Martha Miller Center as to the intricacy of each snowflake. Complete wonder encapsulates my being as I look up at the beautiful snowflakes dancing in the wind all around me...The deep mysteries of God never cease.

Speaking of mysteries...I went to breakfast with Sacred Dance leadership this morning. There were 7 of us meeting at 7:45am (an hour that I haven't seen in a couple weeks). We had good fellowship and enjoyed our pancakes. Towards the end the waitress came to the table and said that someone had covered our bill. The person was struck by how respectful and joyful we were. I must confess that I was a bit incredulous. I have heard of many stories like this but they always happened to other people. This was God's blessing for us...7 poor college girls getting breakfast. God works in mysterious ways and they are also for our good. So even though there are six more weeks of winter, I have that blessing from God to warm my heart.