Saturday, July 14, 2007

Beginning of PUSH

This is the end of the first week of my summer apprenticeship with PUSH Physical Theatre.
It has been an amazing, stretching, and exhausting week, not only physically but emotionally, mentally, and spiritually.

Here's an example of how my day is:
9:00 Devotions
9:30 Warm-Up
10:00 Conditioning (keyword: push-ups)
10:45 Technique (learning mime, gymnastics, etc...)
12:15 lunch after having burned so many calories
1:00 Warm-Up again
Then Improvisation with using different viewpoints and partnering
5:00 back to the Roberts townhouses for food!
7:00 Lecture by one of the company members...this is just every other night

There are 15 of us doing this apprenticeship. We are from all over...from various places in New York, Michigan, Delaware, Mississippi, Virginia, and North Carolina. God has certainly brought us together to pursue our passion for the arts. There is going to be 2 more weeks of training, then we go on tour! I'll put up the tour schedule sometime soon!

by the way-News Channel 13 is doing a special on PUSH this Friday (the 20th) on their morning show...5am-7:30am. They want to shoot us live so we have to be up at the studio at 5 am, which means we have to look like we're up at this hour everyday dancing! :)

Sunday, July 8, 2007

a poem

My friend Sarah showed me this poem after a conversation that we had about being content about being single for the time being and falling more in love with Jesus. I pray that you really enjoy it and that God speaks to you through it.

Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone,
To have a deep soul relationship with another,
To be loved thoroughly and exclusively.
But God, to a Christian, says,
"No, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled and content
With being loved by Me alone,
With giving yourself totally and reservedly to Me,
With having an intensely personal and unique relationship
With Me alone.
Discovering that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found,
Will you be capable of the perfect human relationship
That I have planned for you.
You will never be united with another until you are united
With Me alone,
Exclusive of anyone or anything else,
Exclusive of any other desires or longings.

I want you to stop planning,
Stop wishing,
And allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing,
One that you cannot imagine.
Please allow Me to bring it to you.
You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things.
Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I Am.
Keep listening and learning the things I tell you.
You just wait.
That's all.
Don't be anxious.
Don't worry.
Don't look at the things you think you want;
You just keep looking off and away up to Me,
Or you'll miss what I want to show you.
And then when you are ready,
I'll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than any
You could dream of.
You see, until you are ready and until
The one I have for you is ready
(I am working even at this moment to have you both ready at the same time),
Until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me
And the life I prepared for you,
You won't be able to experience the love that
Exemplified your relationship with Me.
And this is the perfect love.

And dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love,
I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your
Relationship with Me,
And to enjoy materially and concretely
The everlasting union of beauty, perfection and love
That I offer you with Myself.
Know that I love utterly.
I Am God.
Believe it and be satisfied.

~ St. Anthony of Padua

Saturday, July 7, 2007


A couple weeks ago my suitemate's boyfriend was asking me if there were any "special" guys in my life. There's not...and I could honestly tell him that I was content with that. I am content in that area in my life. Right now, I just want to fall more in love with Jesus.
There is a cry within each one of us that wants to be captivating and loved by another. We want to take someone's breath away, yet we replace that someone with anyone who will pay attention to us. A guy or a girl can't complete that desire. We search and search for that One. The world grows tired of the masks we've place over our hearts to gain love...and it has all been through our own pursuit. There's a quote that says, "Don't chase after love and hope God catches up to you, chase after God and see who's running beside you." I think that is so true! True contentment is letting Jesus make you beautiful inside and out, knowing that as you pursue Him, everything will work out according to His perfect plan. My challenge to you is to follow your true love and continue to fall in love with Him...then and only then will you be able to effectively love someone else.

Captivate me, Jesus
You alone are Beautiful
You alone are worthy
Captivate me, Jesus
Until you are all that's left of me.
You alone can make me beautiful
when you shine through me.

Wednesday, July 4, 2007

days like these...

I love days like these...when I can sit in my family room with a cup of my favorite tea (mint medley with honey and milk), with the screen door opened to let in the cool breeze as well as the refreshing sound of rain. I love the sound of rain as it comes down through the trees and the distance chattering of birds. There's something so graceful and peaceful about it. Maybe that's why I like the country so much. The house is still. I take a sip of my tea and marvel as the beauty of God. So peaceful...
I then heard God whisper, "this is for you! I made this morning with you in mind!" He knows just how to make me smile and to display his love for me. I'm reading Captivating by John and Stasi Eldredge. It was talking about how God romances us.

Every song you love, every memory you cherish, every moment that has moved you to holy tears has been given to you from the One who has been pursuing you from your first breath in order to win your heart. God's version of flowers and chocolates and candlelight dinners comes in form of sunsets and falling stars, moonlight on lakes and cricket symphonies, warm wind, swaying trees, lush gardens, and fierce devotion (pg 116).

Even though there are probably many people who are disappointed about the rain on this Independence Day, I must confess that I have enjoyed this day entirely. I know that God made this morning as a love letter to me. He loves us personally and knows just how to show his love. He's the master of all love languages!
So how have you been blessed by Him? Are you aware of how He shows His love for you? It could be just small things such as hearing your favorite song on the radio or receiving encouragement from a friend. Be aware of these gifts of love, stay in-tuned to Him, and thank Him for displaying his glory and love in your life.